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Thursday, September 23, 2004 so long never get to update le. haiz... so many depresing things happened to me in such a short span of time... I was robbed of all my money, $100 plus and my hp just yesterday... Stupid drunk me... but must thank God its only those... But haizz... feeling so depressed and lost... without my hp, i can't contact anyone... I feel like i have no friend at all you know... its so scary... haizzz... my life sucks... wonder when will good things happen to me..yah... and after ignoring me for a week, xiao lao ban is finally talking to me... but its so sad that he lost all his drive, dreams and hope... he wants to just run away and return to korea without completing what he has started here... its so sad... and its like he can just let go of everyone of us like that... its so sad to know he is just this little boy in the adult body... I really think he's a good person, but sometimes his thinking must change... can, he can critize me... but he fail to look at himself also... which is so sad... He does alot of personal thinking and soul search... but why is it that he just can't see himself? I'm so troubled... I really don't want him to leave you noe... its so sad. how i wish he can really truly understand how i feel for him... but i don't think he can... its his short-coming. haizz... have to go to the police station tomolo for record.. it sucks... man. my precious hp with all his pictures and msges. its so sad. maybe i haven really let go of the relationship. i'm pathetic. I miss all my frenz... I miss being able to contact them.. but now, i don't even have a single one of their hp no..... Argh!! I hate myself and my life... nothing good ever happens to me! Life. what is that? Love, What is that? Xiao lao ban once read to me abt love being like the universe. hard to comprehen(however u spell that) and large like the universe.. its always there but no one can fully understand its presence. yah... he also said, Love don't change. Its the person... but if love don't change, no matter how the person change, there still shld be love... then why the need of separation? I really can't understand... maybe its something too profound for a simple gal like me to understand. the more u want to know, the more you'd be troubled and the further u get from the truth... I should reallly learn to take things as they come and not think too much... yah... aniwae, i'm now at xiao lao ban's house... had a good talk with him.. staying with christine... she's so nice! really... she totally took care of me when i was so distraught and she spent so much time and effort to make me feel better.... I'm so blessed! and feeling slightly better now... can't say for sure at the police station tomolo though.. haiz... Life is difficult, but God is fair... To have given me such a good friend, boss and sister like Christine. She really surprise me at the length she would go to help you... I'm blessed.... okay, enough of my nonsense... i'm tired... have to rest... nitezzz..... Lost.IN.Translation. Links Jeong HoBrian Towliang Wolfy Samantha Karen Previous May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 January 2007 May 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 January 2009Credits Layout: AngelaPicture: AdvancedAnime | |||||
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