All In A Day's Work

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Just applied for work permit just now!!!

Now, I need to apply for jobs... But can only work up to 20hours a week..

Due to the immigration law for students...

Well well, wonder if working in aus is the same as working in S'pore..

Hope it will be a pleasant experience.. And I can make many nice friends... ^^

Poor baka worked until so late in the office... Hope he won't fall sick and won't forget to take a rest sometimes...

I wonder ans wonder. Well, I shall not state it here..

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Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Just back from Kendo training!!

I love it even after nit being able to train during the holidays.

I love even if I get bruises all over.

I love it eve if I will not be able to move a muscle tomorrow...

I'm in a super good mood... Even though I did not perform very well during training..

Kendo makes me float on cloud nine even when i think i'm developing a bruise on my chin.. Hee...

Kendo kendo kendo~!!

Really needed it when We left our conversation on a bad note... Although in the beginning, he did ask me to return to s'pore...

REally needed to vent it all out and clear my mind..

Kendo helped me not think... And Kyuray (i have no idea how to spell) talked to me finally.. Haha.. He is a KOREAN!! I always tot he was japanese!!!

LAlala~!!! Kendo kendo kendo~!! Okie.. pardon me if i have typo.. coz my fingers are tremblingfrom the training...

Gonna Bathe now~~~!!! Hee....

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Tuesday, February 21, 2006

More pictures from Karen's cam.. Moon still owes us alot alot of pictures...

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Monday, February 20, 2006

Well, well, I'm in a good mood again!

HAha... Who cares if the whole world is out to kill me?!

He msged me that he miss me!! YAy~!!!

He actually misses me too and he actually told me!!!

Yay~!!! Hee...

And I get the premiership for a sneak preview at his new site!! ^^

Yay~!! I feel so so special and happy~!!!

Heuheu... ^^ Lalalala~!!!

*muakz*

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Saturday, February 18, 2006

Unable to sleep

Was awoken 2 hours into my sleep. Couldn't sleep a wink after which.

Its not like I'm excited or nervous. I mean, I've been through this umpteen times.

But there is just one weird feeling. I can't comprehend.

Feeling kinda disappointed. Everyone called or msged or sent their regards.

The most important person yet.... I shan't habour any hopes. I didn't. But why the disappointment?

Less than an hour and i need to get ready to leave the house.

It is as if it was the last goodbye. Maybe having such an old boyfriend is not very good. Maybe its just the race. I correct myself. Maybe having a korean boyfriend is not very good.

Especially when he is trying to pave a new career again for the future.

Especially when he is emotionally impaired. In terms of expressing himself. Maybe I am too.

I shouldn't complain. He already warned me that he is not expressive. And I told him he can do anything he likes, I don't mind. I told him i will support his decisions.

Then why am I so bitter that he did not join me in Aus eventually?

SO much for trying to be an understanding person. I asked for it. Its so warped. My predicament.

I don't know what is good for me anymore. All I know is that minute things will not and shall not stand in my way to achieve my ultimate list.

My ultimate list for now, is my degree. And it shall be all that fills my mind.

Why can't I sleep. I'm really so tired. I haven't had a good night's sleep ever since my unfortunate incident last year.

I haven't been truely happy to be back here this whole holiday until I saw him again.

But now, I will never be truely happy again, since the last time I saw him.

Contradictions, this world is truely.

Who can decipher the amplitude of the mechanism that the world runs in. I assumed I had conrol over it. What foolishness. It was my folly to think its as simple as catergories.

As long as emotions are placed in catergories and approached in different yet straight-forward manner. How wrong was I!! OH! Pardon my imbecility.

My retribution to belittle the facade of the world. To think I, and only me can see through its little masquerade.

Oh~!! The sleepless nights and clear skies, just put me to such moods, however taxing it is on my brain cells.

I need to hit the sack... I have an hour to nap.

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Friday, February 17, 2006

Last Minute Packing!!

HAhaa... Come to think of it, it is only now i feel the anxiety.. Hee... And also another weird feeling in my heart which i have no idea wat emotion to put to it..

Haven really packed finish.. Only have a few shirts and pants and shoes in my suitcase.. Haha... I'm doomed!! TO think my flight will be early in the morning..

Gonna miss even more people this time I'm back...

People like Josi, I'd so miss her when watching australian tv... And of coz all my colleagues and friends... HAiz... Thankfully the technology is so advanced now..

Kinda hard to breathe... my heart is like pounding.. heee... Its weird since i've been thru this many many times...

Actually, I secretly like packing suitcases... HAhah... I have no idea why...

Another thing.

Recieved a weird email on Vday... SO I opened it... And saw that it was from the thai bouncer... Haha.. And in it, was just 2 lines asking if i remembered him and saying where he is from. Attached to this email was his big ass Picture.. HAha! I think he really afraid I forget what he looks like.. But he is so good looking lah..

And, I'm missing baka... NO expactations. That's what I told myself a thousand times. But its such a chore. I still miss him alot and alot and alot...

Thanks to baka for his valentine's "Present and Kiss" in the American time...

I love him. ^^

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Saturday, February 11, 2006

Fralalalala~!!!!

Haiz... Did i mention that i just cut my hair on monday...

And... I'm SO SAD!!!!!

I told the idiot guy to cut 1 inch... He cut 4 FREAKING inches.... Now my hair so short!!! So sad!! No more shu nu look!!! Haiz...

Then he dye my hair.. now look like black colour.. Argh~!! like nerd... I realized everytime after i get a bad haircut, i will meet Baka.. he always see me in bad hairdos...

BoO~!!!!!!!!!!!! Next time i better tell them i wanna keep the length... Hmph!!!!

Oh~ V-day is coming.. Haha... as uausl lah... I spending it with ching leh~!! hahaha~!! Coz we working together mah!! HAha.. Then i maybe staying over her place and count down to V-day... Hee....

Well, i better go out soon, i wanna get something from bugis for Ching... To increase her english ability... *See I so good!*

Hee... Okie okie.. I better go and do something abt this nerd hair and get the hell outta my house!

Ciao~!! *muakz*

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Thursday, February 09, 2006

Emotions just Bursting out of my chest...

Always wondered how i would react.

He just looks so radiant and good!!! It just reminded me of why i love him.

I don't know.. Its just so comfortable. And I'm so so so happy!! I haven't felt this happy or even truely happy for such a long time!

I missed him so MUCH!!!

Just him sitting next to me, with his leg against mine, his shoulders on mine, his hands next to mine, even when he rested his head on my shoulder. It just feels so right and comfortable, my heart racing with happiness.

Even though i was feeling really gross from the hangover, he just made me feel so much better... So so much better. its as if the pain was never there.

Finally get to experience him sending me to the bus stop again. FInally get to smell him again. Finally we get to touch again. Finally get to catch him stealing glances at me again. Finally get to catch him smelling my hair again. After these agonising 7 months.

I missed him so much!!

But at the same time, taking alot of effort to restraint. He still not wanting to talk about our problems.

But now, I'm just really happy for him. For his happiness and radiance. Love him so very much, he is so precious and dear to me. Just wanna hold him forever. Just wanna sit next to him till i die...

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Monday, February 06, 2006

I AM SO BORED!!!!!!!!!

As u can see.. I did all the possible test that interest me....Oh boy, I muzt be really really bored.

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.
You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

All American Kid

Popular but not plastic. Athletic but not a jock. Smart but not a brain.

You were well rounded and well liked in high school.

Who Were You In High School?

Your IQ Is 90

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average

Your Verbal Intelligence is Average

Your Mathematical Intelligence is Above Average

Your General Knowledge is Above Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

Your Personality Is

Guardian (SJ)

You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented.
Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules.

You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader.
You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you.

A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do.
You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up.

In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly.

At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions.

With others, you tend to be polite and formal.

As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself.

On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them!

The Three Question Personality Test

Your Heart Is Blue

Love is a doing word for you. You know it's love when you treat each other well.
You are a giving lover, but you don't give too much. You expect something in return.

Your flirting style: Friendly

Your lucky first date: Lunch at an outdoor cafe

Your dream lover: Is both generous and selfish

What you bring to relationships: Loyalty

What Color Heart Do You Have?

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.

You've been deeply wounded in the past, and you're still recovering from that hurt.

You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky.

In fights, you speak your mind and don't hold back. You know you're right, and you can get quite angry about it.

Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

Your Birth Month is December

You love life and exude an outgoing, cheerful vibe.
Blessed with a great sense of humor, you can laugh at adversity.

Your soul reflects: Celebration, success, and wealth

Your gemstone: Blue Topaz

Your flower: Narcissus

Your colors: Indigo, green, and blue-green

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.

You give and take equally in relationships.

You need your space and privacy. You don't like to be smothered.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world
So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...
But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult

You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.
Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.

Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Your Love Element Is Metal

In love, you inspire and respect your partner.
For you, love is all about fusing together for one incredible life experience.

You attract others with wit and a bit of flash.
Your flirting style is defined by making others want and value you.

Greatness and optimism are the cornerstones of your love life.
You may let go too easily, but you never get weighed down by your past.

You connect best with: Earth

Avoid: Fire

You and another Metal element: will control and smother each other

What Element Is Your Love?

You Passed 8th Grade Science

Congratulations, you got 8/8 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Science?

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.
That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!
The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.

You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.
Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.
You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?

You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.
Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.
As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

You Are a Little Scary

You've got a nice edge to you. Use it.

How Scary Are You?

You Are Death

You symbolize the end, which can be frightening.
But you also symbolize the immortality of the soul.
You represent transformation, rebirth of a new life.
Sweeping away the past is part of this card, as painful as it may be.

Your fortune:

Don't worry, this card does not predict death itself.
Instead it foreshadows the ending of an era of your life, one that is hard to let go of.
But with the future great new things will come, and it's time to embrace them.
Mourn for a while, but then face the future with humility and courage.

What Tarot Card Are You?

Your Birthdate: December 12

You're a dynamic, charismatic person who's possibly headed for fame.
You tend to charm strangers easily. And you usually can get what you want from them.
Verbally talented, you tend to persuade people with your speaking and writing.
You are affectionate and loving, but it's hard for you to commit to any one relationship.

Your strength: Your charm

Your weakness: Your extreme manipulation tactics

Your power color: Indigo

Your power symbol: Four leaf clover

Your power month: December

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

You Should Be An Aquarius

What's good about you: philosophical and idealistic, you are a great thinker

What's bad about you: you require a lot of space - it's hard to get close to you

In love: you're quirky and playful, but you hate to be smothered

In friendship, you're: likely to have many acquaintances and very few good friends

Your ideal job: pilot, snow boarder, or science fiction writer

Your sense of fashion: unconventional, unique outfits that turn heads

You like to pig out on: anything with garlic or unique spices

What Sign Should You Be?

You Are French Food

Snobby yet ubiquitous.
People act like they understand you more than they actually do.

What Kind of Food Are You?

Your Inner Child Is Angry

You're not an angry person.
But when you don't get your way, watch out.
Like a very manipulative kid, you will get what you want.
Even if it takes a little kicking and screaming.

How Is Your Inner Child?

You Are 60% Weird

You're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. Right?
But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks!

How Weird Are You?

Your Animal Personality

Your Power Animal: Eagle

Animal You Were in a Past Life: Whale

You are active, a challenger, and optimistic.
Hard-working, you are always working towards a set goal.

The Animal Personality Test

Heehee.... Just kill me now... Nobody loves me... Hahaha...

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Saturday, February 04, 2006

Been so lazy to blog recently...

Maybe its just the lack of events going on in my life... Just a monotonous routine.

2 more weeks and I'll be gone...

I realised, after listening to my friend who got herself involved with a married man, that, everything is very straightforward.

It is only complicated when u let it be.

My advice to her; let him go. no matter what, he will eventually go back to his wife. U will nv get a status and NO, u are NOT THAT SPECIAL. if he can do it to his wife, he can do it to ANY other women. not just u. Not worth it! In the first place, you know he is marrried with 2 kids. So, its ur fault for thinking that by any chance, u can break his marriage. As a human being I despise that. But as a friend, I can only advise u to let go.

And i realized its easy to just drop it and go. Maybe i'm stronger. But it rally takes practice. At most u just quit tat lowly paid job and leave the airport so u can avoid him. AND NOT GO AND MESSAGE HIM ON UR OWN ACCORD!!! delete his number lah!

For me, though I still love him ALOT, but when there is no point being tangled in this messy relationship, i decided to walk out. walk forward. even if my heart still loves him. but we are not meant to be now.

BUT AT LEAST HE IS NOT MARRIED!!!!!! So, we're different you see?! Don't ever relate u and me together. We are different people with different sets of morales.

Eventually, time will heal. And by the day I die, if I still love him, then let it be. There is so many things in this world that you cannot control. And the more you try to control, the more tired u become.

But make the right decisions and control the things u can control, like moving on, like ceasing all forms of contacts, like moving away. And when u let go, U feel more relieved, not so frequently on ur toes, and maybe he will then be able to find his own true happiness. Then why hold onto something that will never belong to you.

Thing like love, no matter how long, u cannot control it. If u love, it will still be there no matter how u force it to go away. So, things like that, forget about even trying to control it...

Yupz... Haiz... spent the whole night trying to talk sense into her. But... I think she likes to be like that, and she seems very proud of it.. I give UP!

Surprisingly, I have a free day today~!! And its a sat!!! Coz of chingay, so there will be little business in the restaurant.. so no need to work!!

But kinda lost. hahah... Coz not used to being so free...

Baka~

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