All In A Day's Work

Saturday, April 29, 2006

I recently watched a very disturbing movie...

"Boys don't cry" starring Hilary Swank.

It won the oscars and global awards.

I was a good plot, true life story, but overly disturbing.

If you've watched it, you will know what I mean.

Hilary Swank acts as a guy in this movie and actually is a girl with sexual identity crisis. She escapes her hometown and lied her way into a group of friends. She fell in love with a girl, who only found out she was a girl after they had sex. But she was in denial. She loved Hilary back too.

And it ended up really gross, she got shot in the neck, another friend also got shot in the neck.The whole process was very very disturbing.. Cause much sftermath mental distress. Scary. It was not the lesbianism that scared me. It was the whole process how she got found out, raped by her very own friends, then shot after she turned them in to the police. Mind boggling!

Yupz, Anyway, my exams are in a month's time! And I just found out the are all back to back, with animal diversity sandwiched between Plant lab exam and plant theory exam!!

Sucks!! So I have to staart planning my study schedule now, and start it soon, and stick to it.. Always had problems sticking to schedules.

Yah, and recently, i stumbled upon this web page, that sells the exact same thing (some of them) as baka's site and the whole bloddy design is also similar to his webby!! Posers!!! And they are importing from korea too!! BoO~!!!!!

Anyway, the strangest thing happened today. Moon called. I picked up, no sound... And she never call again.

SO, I figured, either Nou was looking for me, or, Moon accidentally pressed my number without realising. I mean coz she nv say anything, and she nv call back(means not important). Yah. well, as if she would really call... Raised my hopes for that moment.

But well, once beaten twice shy, I'm immuned to false hopes. All kind. Even those from baka. My trainer? Baka lor.

Okie okie.. really tired now.. gotta sleep... Hope something good will happen in my life. FOr once. Its about time right?

Missing Baka...

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Tuesday, April 25, 2006

I'm still having problems sleeping!!

I want sleeping pills!!! Argh~!!

Anyway, my exam is over.. *Phew* FInally..

I was quite good, as in I can answer all the question except tha i missed out 2 points... So... *fingers crossed*

Well, Wen is back from her sydney-melbourne-whitsunday islands trip.. She had lots of fun.. Which was a good thing...

She bought me a shirt from Bondi beach, And she got to take a picture with one of the lifeguards from the TV show BONDI RESCUE!!! *drools* HAha.. And she got me a pair Havana thongs and, A keychain that looks like a turtle.. (she wanted to get me a penguin one.. but she couldn't find it) And lastly, some really good chocolates!!!

So sweet if her to remember me when she is on the trip. I seriously didn't expect anything from her..

Well, I baked her a cheesecake, waited for her to get back, and we celebrated her Belated birthday... Hee... Yupz...

So that's pretty much it.. I'm waiting for ther to uplad her pictures into the com so I could sneak good shots and post it up her.. HAha...

Okay.. some random pictures when we went to watch Ice Age2...

Oh.. HAd Indian dinner last nite with Nou, eleen, June, and wen last night too.. nice ambience all.. But the food is too loaded with Indian spice... Too much of a good thing is not a good thing... Haha..

Missing my Baka... Hope he takes care of his stomach problems, if need be, to go for his endoscpoy again... XXOO

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Wednesday, April 19, 2006

I didn't sleep at all yesterday till this morning 10am plus...

My eyes were really tired, worked to its max, but I was caffine loaded from the earl grey so my mind was furiously active...

But thanks to it, i had a satisfying self study time for the rest of the morning, tying up some loose ends. It was a really good feeling, like i've finally accomplished something out of the so many days of studying Animal Diversity.

Haven't been eating well these days as i was in no mood and too tired from studying to be bothered. Exam period is a good time to lose weight. Unfortunately for my health(due to lack of food) and my complexion(due to lack of sleep).*BooHoo~*

So, A BIG thanks to Sixian for coming all the way from school to specially deliver the Satay chicken noodles she made to me! It was really tasty and also saved me the extra time from cooking.. Great timing girlie! Settles both lunch and dinner! How generous of you!

That silly girl also left her jacket in my room, it was a good thing, i mean, at least i get to step out of the flat for a bit to walk to school to return it to her. How can she forget it when the temperature here is like 21deg?! In addition to it, Strong dry winds... Blur...

Its kind of nice to be able to move around more when I haven't been out of my room for the past 5 days*Oh My! I have no life!*, except the occassional visit to the gym. All the trees showing signs of autumn, the floor covered with the essence of nature... The smell of the crisp fresh air. Very evident that autumn has started..

Waiting for winter now. Love winters. I love cold countries.. Unlike the humid and hot s'pore... *Sticky~*

Well, oh, wanna thank Karen for her concern too! I saw the message this morning. Actually, more like it woke me up because i fell asleep on the table with my ears right beside the laptop's speaker..

HAha.. SO when your msg came in, I woke up, but all is good! Because at least it woke me up to be able to walk to my bed and have a proper rest. Sorry I didn't reply! I was so tired and my eyes can only vaguely visualize the words on the screen while my non-functional brain had a hard time deciphering its meaning...

Been studying quite diligently and thoroughly for Animal DIversity. Lots to memorise and understand, I think i got the gist of it. I hope I can get a high DIstinction for it. *fingers crossed.. Toes too*

Feeling kind of constipated these days. Haha... I know its too much information.. HAha.. But its weird since i have been having alot of fibres lately, in fact, I've only been eating lettuce and bread for the past 3 days.... The way the human body work is a weird.

Seeing the stack of notes and books infront of me, knowing that most of the information has been crammed into my puny brain, I kinda miss the pressure and challenge of having to type and research for a report. I rather that than the stress of studying, hving cram all those useless information into my brain for the one-off-exam-and-never-gonna-look-at-it-again, feeling all flustered, afraid of leaving anything out or forgetting something that I know its somewhere in my long-term memory...

Ok, I think enough of my useless ramblings... I have to bury my head in that pile of Ooh-so-delightful books.... CIao~

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Really Random Thought.

I was shitting in the toilet and this thought struck me. Of what, I forgot... *sheepish smile* It was something random but i wanted to ask... Badly. Well, if I remember then...

Better not happen during the exams!

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Sunday, April 16, 2006

Animal Diversity...

Have to study for the coming mid sem... Its all about worms and Insects!!!

I have nightmares on worms and insects...

When I eat, I imagine worms in my food..

Paranoia...

I'm going out of my mind!!!

Ewww...

Recently, so many things seem insufficient, as if I have raised my expectation out of life. I never am contented these days, Seems that I just crave for more.

Senseless.

I've been thinking, many things i did was just senseless, and i know it. Funny thing, I can't seem to pull out of it. Told myself one day, I will look back at all my foolishness and know it was nothing at all. It doesn't faze me. When will the day come?

Convincing.

Been convincing myself of alot of things, trying to decieve myself. Coaxing myself to study, to stop analysing, to stop thinking. I'm a bad negotiator...

Out of my mind.

I miss him like crazy. Told myself not to think, but it seems like a part of me. Happy he said those words, but part of me can't bring myself to believe him.

Love the way he calls me, but at the same time, brings an aching sensation to my heart.

Thinking if it ain't him, then maybe one day I will be able to let go. But it hurts to even think that.

The fear of losing him, not being able to be by his side. But all things will have to come to an end eventually.

Dilema.

WOndering if I should do honours. Financial constraint, emotional constraint, kinda sick of Perth already.

Procrastination.

Wanted to study. Have to. But, my mind refuses, just wonders off. ANywhere but work.

Restlessness.

I feel so bored! I want to work, I want to be busy, I want to be going crazy, I want to have loads of fun, I want to be happy.

SO many so many things. All of little significance. I suppose. Just want to get it out of my mind.

So many so many things I want to express. But not here. Why did this become a place I can't trust anymore?

So many so many times I just want to let go, give up. I realized, maybe I'm not that strong afterall. I seem to be escaping all my life.

Yes. I want to just leave this place. I don't want anyone to know me. I don't want to have any other contradicting emotions. I don't want external influence.

Escape, bring me to KoKOtopia. Where I live alone. Where I have a peace of mind, serenity, happiness and trust.

I'm dreaming of KoKOtopia...

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Saturday, April 08, 2006

Just met Wendy N Peigin.. They left to go and check out of their hotel...

They flying back today le... Haiz.. Miss them...

They came over at 8.30am.. Haha.. wake me up.. so we snapped photos...

Then they left at 9.15am.. SO sad...

SO short the time... HAiz...

Feel happy for them but also kinda feeling sad now...

Having difficulties sleeping again...

I miss Baka... I don't know why I feel this way. Its a strange thing. I don't know why I'm so unhappy... Well...

ANyways.. Will upload the pics soon... When I'm not so lazy..

Right now, I jyst wanna go back to sleep....

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Thursday, April 06, 2006

Went for Suqin, SuAnn, Edward, most Importantly, Wendy's and Peigin's Convocaion!!

SO proud of them all!!

And so glad to see my dearies(Peigin N wendy) again!!! Missed them so so so much!! ^^ *beams*

Went with Sixian and Crystal! Sorry for making them wait for me!!*Sorry sorry!!*

Some pictures we took...

Hope to catch up with dy n gin again before they leave for malaysia.. And I must take Loads of pictures with them!!!! *muakz*

So excited for them.. MAkes me wonder what my graduation will be like.. Wonder if Baka would fly down to share that special moment with me(i doubt it)...
HAI~Miss him...

Haiz.. If only Karen was there.. It would have completed the picture... :(

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Monday, April 03, 2006

Arghh~!!! I'm going crazY!

I Miss Baka!!!!!!

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