All In A Day's Work

Sunday, September 30, 2007

;)

Not quite as miserable as I was the other days...

Thanks to Suqin and Xinyu for their lovely Surprise on my work-desk.

Lol.

I will shy you know, they tell the whole world and praise me. Haha...

So sweet of them!

I was really a pleasant surprise after a long busy day!

It really made my day! ^^

So I was in quite a spirit... But then on Friday, I saw boss face like thunder storm

Then I found out that somebody has stolen money again from Boss's Buddha scripture in the resaurant!

SO terrible! THis is not the first time.

But Wenjie and I; with our nonsense... Hee.. Managed to cheer him abit

Thus, I felt bad for being so late on Saturday evening as I was slacking at home and was in a I feel UGLY, FuGly... Frumpy mood....

But well, I just went to work frumpily and... Woaha~!!! Business was booming good! ^^

Thanks to me of coz! I was the host attracting and pulling people in.. Wahah... No la, they all came in themselves.

But got quite few cute guys.. heee.....and they smile at me...! ^^ In all my frumpi-ness... lol

ok... so I think I'm gonna.... Bake.... ^^

Lost.IN.Translation.

Thursday, September 27, 2007

I think I've been blogging alot recently.

Maybe coz there is so many things bogging me down.

And prolly, here is my limit..............

These few days are rainy days.

Rain; mixed feelings. A silent rythmn with occassional base...

I like the rain, the heavy quiet kind. I like to dance and feel free in the rain.

I dislike lightnings and thunders. I'm afraid of them. I am afraid to the extend sometimes I cry.

Maybe becoz when I was young, I was left alone at home, forgotten, and it started raining and thundering with streaks of light. I remember holding onto my dad's shirt and cried and cried, but no one came. and I was so frighten i actually puked over the bed. And i got scolded.

I know I can never rely on anyone but me.

So I dislike that kind. especially when both angry lightning and clammering thunder decides to explode the same time. U'll see me squad in the middle of the road, wherever I am.

I know. Nobody can understand.

Sometimes, it feels good to be treated so nicely. And sometimes I get lost in it. And i start to demand more.

And when i think abt it, i know i've become unfair, and am expecting too much. Moreover, they, who treat me nice, are nice ppl to start with. not my partner or my dad. I have no reason to "exploit" or ask for more.

But still, the tinge of disappointment when displayed nonchalency gets to me.

And I awake my senses. And I start to pull away. I am not a worthy friend of which they should keep.

Because I've got nothing to offer them. And What thay've got to offer, they won't be able to sustain it long.

I dislike the rain also because everytime I leave, it rains, and he'd say its because his heart is crying.

I'm numb. I sometimes think I can maybe accept other people... but sometimes, they disappoint me like i shouldn't have raised my expectations... And it'd all be back to square one.

Rainy days get me moody these days.

I'm afraid of what the future holds. I am afraid of this battle I'm fighting with the society, life, relationships, friendships, my illness and many many things.

I think I'm a bad person.

And a person who has no lived life.

THus, I dun see any beauty in me. So can all those ppl stop saying that I'm pretty.

Because I'm not.

I'm broken

Lost.IN.Translation.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Found myself staring at the same thing, searching for the same thing.

Again running arnd in circles.

I just craved to know, i needed to know.

maybe its to delude myself that this pain and sacrifice is worth it.

I laugh at myself when i found myself smiling senseless-ly at wat i found.

The only time u said that. the only person i believed.

Yet its just a part of u being a man. That's y i punished u that i told u i'll never call you and you had to make all the calls to me.

And when I saw an improvement I told myself to give u another chance.

And you proved to my delight... however... only for that short time.

Yet here i am. Back to square 1 when where u are probably has no room for memories

Mocking myself, I'm tired, I'm numb. Yet I still miss you again and again.

Take me away.

Lost.IN.Translation.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Frivolous words hung loosely by the tongue, aren't they all but ONE; MEN

same words uttered. I can't help but feel more emotional. these things bug me for days, and just a tiny trigger sparks a cascade of emotions.

these very ones i'd like to shove and push right down the the deepest of my heart.

Just want to smile for the world to see. I shall not add burdern to anyone arnd me. my well kept mask-oh where is it?

Words of no weight told to me. Friend of no weight forgotten instantly.

i'm hungry.

Lost.IN.Translation.

Still in office.

Actually pretty much nothing to do.. but i just don't feel like gg home.

so many things on my mind these days. its wearing me down. I'd like a haitus. I'd like to run away.

Please take me with you~

Lost.IN.Translation.

Saturday, September 08, 2007

A few issues I have been encountering and it bugs me:

firstly;

The thing with irritating taxi drivers. I have been influenced and used to taking cab thanks to xlb... So, now when I do take cabs, one of the common questions is; "Are you local?" or "where do you stay?" or "Are you sure you are local?".

UNCLE, I sit your cab doesn't mean I have to tell you my entire family history ok! I pay. U shut up and drive.

Ask already nvm, tell him I local, can still ask if I'm sure. Idiot or not.

SOme beter still. "Miss ah, where you stay?"

Me:"Sengkang"
Idiot: "Oh, so you not visiting your friend there ah, you gg home?"
Me:"Yah. why?"
Idiot: "Oh, you don't look like those who stay HDB la."
Me:"Ok, uncle drive me to istana, Actually I stay there la."

STUPID.

Another one can ask, " miss ah, you stay compass heights ah. Nice hor the apartment. Or you going to burlington square is your house? Studio Apartment?"

IDIOT. none of your business anyway la.

So GO AWAY! Don't talk to me when I obviously am giving you one word-ed monotonous reply. And Yes, I am local. Not korean. NOt Indonesian. And, NO, I am not going to tell you I'm japanese. ANd yes, I am very sure I'm local. now Shoo. ans shush!

Secondly,

The thing about rumours. They are really malicious be it whatever intentions.

And lastly,

I talked to my sis... And i realised I miss xlb alot. ANd i realized singaporean males are SO boring. SO SO SO boring. I tell u, I can predict the nxt move, and when they say something I'm like, I've heard it somewhere.. And I realize I start mentally comparing them with xlb...

BAd. Bad.

that's very bad. Oh well. I'm going to japan to be a NUN.

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