All In A Day's Work

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

I attract unfaithful men.

or is it I'm not good enough that they have to look for someone else to fill the space?

*shrugs*

I should be a nun.

Lost.IN.Translation.

Monday, June 23, 2008

Some time last year, this time, I felt the same as I am now.

And I thought I would have learnt my lesson and be more matured.

I feel kinda betrayed, but it isn't anybody's fault. We're all humans.

Just that, how do I trust again? I like him. And it'd probably remain that way for a while.

But how do I learn to trust again?

I need to get rid of this feeling. Its suffocating. I don't want to feel this way.

No. I'm not angry nor do I hate. I'm just upset with myself.

And feel tons of hurt. More than I would imagine. So that was the real reason...

I wondered if ignorance was bliss....

Lost.IN.Translation.

Sunday, June 22, 2008

The WAR.

EEEeeeeWWWWWW!!!!!!

A humungous cockroach flew into my room and made a crackling sound as it landed on the wall above my bed.

I looked up horrified and ran for the door!

Where's the insecticide?!! Darn. Its in the room. -_-

Timidly opening the door again, I dived for the canister and started spraying frantically at that intruder.

Don't fly. Please don't.... AAhhhhhh~!!!! And slammed the door shut again.

After 10mins... I turned the door knob, pushed the door open and ran away.

Hmmm.. nothing flew out. ok.. I'lll have to go in then.....

Where are you~~? where are you~?

Armed with the canister of insecticide, I sprayed the path I intend to walk.

Damn. Where the hell is it? I have to see it dead and find a way to dispose of its evidence.

No way am I sleeping with that thing in the same room.

The queen size bed took me a long time to shift it before I saw its carcass. Yuck.

Now.. now.... how do i dispose? My sis is not in..... Hmmm... but i dun wanna touch it at all.

I took the dustpan and tried poking at it.. eeew. it seems to have moved!!! Ahhh!!!! *Spray*

I can't DO IT!!!! Okay... I'll vacuum it......

And now.... I'm thinking... the babies will crawl out of the vacuum cleaner some time, right?

DAMN!!! How??!!!!!!! *shudders*

I FREAKING HATE COCKROACHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!! or anything that has more than 4 legs for that matter.. *SHEEPISH smile*

Lost.IN.Translation.

Friday, June 20, 2008

A really tight and twisted knot in my stomach.

Nervous....

Can hardly breathe or hear myself.

I used to like that anticipation. Now, its like awaiting a sentence.

Take a deep breath. *Phew*

So many things I'm so eager to learn and get right.

So much to prepare before I'm gg to be on my own.

And so much I need to settle.

And so much I want to keep.

And of coz, he is one of them. I'm confused. Yes.

But there is not confusion that I do like him. (:

Lost.IN.Translation.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Woohoo~! Heavy heavy rain! Just wanna dance in the rain if not for the thunder and lightning.. Scary~ @.@

Me love rain sometimes. (:

Ooh... I can't understand why I cannot take him as a friend again? I tried to comprehend and reason with myself but it doesn't seem to wanna hear abt it. So.... haha. i pushed that thought aside.

Anyways, he'll not notice if i'm there or not, so i can take my own sweet time to decide.

But its weird, coz its not like we entered an official relationship or he cheated or whatever. Maybe I just can't understand how he can suddenly stop liking someone and say "let's be friends!" (: Oh... can't comprehend. oh well... taking my time. (:

Anyways, in terms of emotional status, kinda reverted back to the old me.

No feeling.

lol. oh well, better than being hurt and feeling like a fool. (:

Glad I can feel like that so quickly. Maybe that's why I can't be ffriends, coz I can't pretend. And coz maybe the feelings that were shoved away may just come spilling out again. *shrugs shrugs!*

Hey! I really dunno! Ask my head man. lol.

Lost.IN.Translation.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Looks like I've been spending too much time with my mistress... tsk. (:

She is a beautiful new blog for my poems. Unlike this depressing old blog.

But it'd begin to be better. Coz I'll be. (:

Quick Updates!

Meet a friend from the past, who then became a friend in the present and became more than just a friend. Timing and all, too bad for us and he gave me up and decided to be just friends.

Well, I haven't decided if I'll treat him as a friend again. But right now, I have more important things to tend to, which have been congesting my mind for quite some time.

On a lighter note! Hey! I can cry!!! Haven't for a long time. wahaha.

Ok, also means I'm not as unfeeling as I thought I was. (:
But I really like him though. *sigh* Trying to change it to "liked". Not there yet...

Hmmm... (: I was really happy and I can keep myself happy thinking about what he did and said. Until I forget him, that is. (:

My doubts and negativity and all the sadness he brought along shall be banished to the depths of fire in the underworld! Wahahaha! Even if he lied to me abt everything, what can I do right?

I'll feed on the happiness to get on by and move on. Whee~!

Went to Korea and back, Spring is beautiful, trekking, mountains, islands are my love! (:

Went to Tioman and back, had my very first snorkelling experience and "wedding make-over" with my very own close friends! (:

Really quick right? *beams*

Yup, sleeping alot, or trying, so to speak. Reason; depressing. SO shall not be mentioned. But hey! I love to sleep! (:

Oh, went to PCshow with Munina to get her game and ate dinner with her. She is full of crap but I like to spend time with her, cause she cracks me up! (: She's my little emo-cat sister and she always calls me an old hag. @.@ kids.

I got a Macbook! But hate it! lol.

Okies. Hungry hungry...

Ooh.. long post yah, coz as u can see, I haven't updated for the longest time! (:

Lost.IN.Translation.